Iridescent

Background: He was my first boyfriend after the drastic end of a previous relationship.

Iridescent

Immersing myself in this iridescent pool, I hold my breath as thoughts of you flood my mind. Your sharp laughter when a joke is cracked, your callused palm on my thigh, your soft kisses on my forehead, your engaging passion when your football team is playing.

I miss it. I miss you. Those thoughts make me hold my breath for longer than usual.

But then I had to let you go. I had to release the hurt you caused me, the confusion you gave me, the incredulity you invoked in me.

And so I break the surface of the water, my body emerges from the depths; I rise. My breath is renewed as my face is now bathed by the sunlight.

~Adelynne Ong, 2019